trying out bravery

She didn’t know what bravery was.

She followed every rule, and kept her head down.

Then one day she was awakened.

A light peaked through to the darkest place of her soul,

And she touched something that wasn’t there before.

What was this freedom?

Assuming strength would come right away,

She was let down again and again.

She fought, but she failed.

So she followed every rule, and kept her head down.

This time it was sadder because she saw what she was doing.

She saw what she was missing.

Now she’s done. No more.

Head up, shoulders back.

Come fear, come enemy.

You will not win. 

Nerd Alert!

I l-o-v-e my job! I’m an office assistant, and it is wonderful. I love office supplies and faxing and organizing and processing payments and scanning documents and transferring calls and managing projects. I get giddy when our orders from Office Depot come in… it’s like opening a Christmas present!

   

Part of my job is problem-solving.
“I can’t remember my account password!” I gotcha covered.
“I accidentally charged $600 to my credit card instead of $100…help!” No problem.
“I need postage for this package.” Gimme.
“I just got a call from this number; do you know who tried to call me?” Any 1 of about 35 people. This one I still don’t know how to handle, because some people just aren’t very bright. That phone call and the email “can I sign my kids up for camp?” are the ones that make me think, really?

All that to say, I do so love my job!

celebrate the season

The leaves have turned and are falling.  The sky is grayer.  The air is crispier.  

I am so very ready and excited for this time of change! 

This fall/winter time gives me a sense of stripping life of the old and the clutter, and snuggling up with just the bare necessities. I have what I need, and I have it in great quantity. 

I have a family, a home, food, and friends. I have love and I have laughter. 

I want to bundle up in a big sweater (which, by the way, I would live in every day of my life if I could), grab a mug of coffee, and just quietly celebrate the joys of this season.

prized people

All kinds of people have made quite an impression on my life.

There are some people who have known me my whole life; they've continued to love me and take care of me, and they remind me of who I am at times when I forget.

Others came into my life during my teen years... these are pretty unforgettable. They were absolutely crazy, and wonderful, and joyful. They taught me to be ME, and to not be any different.

Still more entered my life that have encouraged me, challenged me, deepened my faith, and caused me to truly ENJOY life.

I am so thankful for the many people I know. The care, the laughter, the wisdom, the vanilla Dr. Peppers, the LOVE. I always hope that I tell every person that touches my heart, how much they mean to me. Their words and hugs and laughter has opened something in my soul that has allowed me to be ME, to understand worship and life and love.

Here's to many more days with these wonderful people! Thank you. :)

a desperate heart cries out,
longing to be set right.

a heaviness sets back in,
that reminds her of the darkest night.

her head hurts, her skin is cold,
her breath is shaky, her head is aching.

desperation almost overwhelming,
tears won't come for fear of faking.

yet a sadness deep within,
won't let the walls hold her back.

sinking, sinking, sinking,
through her eyes is fading, and black.