I am beautiful in His image.

I’m coming to realize the beauty and the freedom that is available on this earth. I used to believe that beauty and complete joy and freedom was only attainable in Heaven, when one is in the presence of the most glorious One.

I find, though, that in all His Heavenly splendor, my Lord can make His perfection – His majesty – known right here on earth.

I thought that perhaps I must get to a certain place in my life and in my heart to experience that one-ness with my Maker. So I set up all these expectations for myself. I was hard on myself and very frustrated when I couldn’t place myself before the Throne and have a truly worshipful heart. I felt unworthy. I began to question my trustworthiness… did God know what He was doing with me? Did He know who He was asking for help from? Doubt floods in unwanted.

Then the Father whispers, “From you, I have no expectations.”

Going through the motions,

Yet sitting quite still.

Called to dive deeper,

But scared to lose my will.

He gave up His life,

Can I do the same?

Will my dreams come true?

That sounds kinda lame.

Not to be like others,

So vain a desire.

Jesus, lead me on,

Through my own muck and mire.

Letting go of expectations,

Freeing myself for You.

Giving up selfish desires,

Because I love You, too.