January 23rd. That's all it is.

I am currently sitting in the main office at New Life Ranch; it feels good to be home. It was my hope that in sitting here I might find a fellow bored soul to hang out with, but here I am, still alone. I'm okay with that for now, I'm just itching for some adventure!

Anyway, I remember that while I was typing up my last post (unfortunately dated back in September), I felt confused and unsure about what I was doing in Stillwater. So much doubt. Blaise Pascal said that "the heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing", but I like to kindly change 'heart' to 'Lord'. God has been revealing Himself - slowly, but surely - to me. Right now that's all that life is to me: one thing after another, just God loving and blessing me. I am living from glory to glory! It's time to have a thankful heart.

It's been raining all day. I don't like the cold so much, but the constant downpour reminds that spring is on its way! I like spring. I like the warmth, the color, the fresh air... it reminds me of my childhood, when my siblings and I could easily spend the entire day in our backyard. That reminds me of those ice pops that we used to get every summer; I remember the orange ones were always left, because none of us liked that flavor.

This was a very random post, I know. I've wanted to write something on here for so long but wasn't sure what, so I figured I should just start. My mind and heart are kind of, what's a good word to describe them? foggy? I feel I've been trying to clear them for a long time now, trying to get back to the person I used to be. Now I realize that all along I've needed to move forward, striving to be the person I want to be.

Many more random posts to come,

Ally

out of my mind, for the sake of my God

"If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again." -2 Corinthians 5:13-15

I feel as if I am out of my mind. What am I doing with my life? Where I am going? The past two and a half years have been wonderful and terrifying, but I never know what the next year - or even the next semester - holds. When I get to that point when I feel I should have things figured out, and I don't, a sick feeling creeps into my stomach and decides to make its home there; I have lost my purpose. I must have purpose! My God is calling me to something so deep, something so great that is for His glory! Unfortunately, I must admit to you that I have no clue what it is He's calling me to. He is taking me on a journey, though, and I know He won't abandon me, for "this God is our God for ever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end." (Psalm 48:14) Praise Him! He is SO good! He takes away doubt, and I become out of my mind for my God!

"And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God's purpose in this is that people should fear [revere, admire, respect, look up to, hold in the highest regard, be in awe of, worship] Him." Ecclesiastes 3:14

God's purpose makes my purpose clear.